MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY

The same kind of happiness continued however another heartache has plagued me. At school I poured everything, I cancelled plans, outings, vacation for every reason, I wanted to achieve honor of highest; it was blood, sweat and tears. The thought of receiving the award that I worked hard for was completely shattered when they asked me to distribute because someone who didn't know my efforts wanted to uphold a whole batch as believed to be a cream of the crop. It was heartbreaking, my friend. I never despised them but I questioned not even the Director, but blamed myself instead. But then I realized life has its reasons, a downfall maybe in my eyes, may just be the reason for my success. However maybe because I never really got the chance to tell my parents what really happened kept me afraid, maybe that why I developed anxiety, and insomnia, the fear of not measuring up consumes and eats me. That very reason why I was late and wasn't able to file scholarships for the schools I aimed after senior high school.

For college, I applied to various schools that was still open for admissions, another aspect was financial capabilities, back to the COVID story, our mother closed near the doorsteps, our businesses and pride was exhausted, to secure and make sure college was unceasing, we sat it down to attend into state universities and so at that time Cauayan Campus was the only open at bay, some miracle I got in for an examination, then for interview and now I never regretted coming here.
On the more recent years, coming here at ISU - Cauayan Campus I have never regretted this decision, in fact here I found people who felt home, who continuously teaches me a lot of things uncommon for me. Their countless teachings on various languages, like my attempt to speak in Ilocano, even today they still do so. On that note I also found people whom I can very much relate to, people whom I've met through leadership work. The work of leadership which I had developed as well from years of participating and absorbing skills as much as I can, simultaneously with academics and leadership work my journey and life story is far from over.